saw myself in the mirror this morning
as I got out of bed
wiped the sweat from the back of my neck
and felt my face go dead
no blood in veins cause it helps with the pain
my eyeballs turning red
back to the base now were face to face
and my feet have turned to lead
pressing on now cause I cant turn back
still got to make it through
pacing myself throughout the day
just to climb to the top of the school
man by day and a beast by night
don't you turn your back
fight my way from the bottom to the top
rest at the top of the stack
beat stops now but I cant stop now
know I got to get my fix
lend me your ear listen hear
listen while the drummer kicks
listen while the drummer kicks
listen to it loud until you cant
feel it anymore

I'm just lying here
chewing on a cigarette
chewing because i cant bring myself to light one more up
I lost my shit on the bus today
I hadn't had a cigarette in about a day
I'm just feeding the need.
But sickeningly enough,
The more i think about it,
I'm okay with that.

help

I need a shoulder
A shoulder to lean on
A hand to hold
I have run from everyone
And I'm alone now
Do you know what its like?
Do you remember?
Falling asleep alone
And as my world falls down around me,
You are safe within your walls
Safe within someone else's arms
I am naked in the dark
No exit once again
I told you I built a ladder
I got so used to telling myself the same story
that ladder burned longer ago than I can remember
Here come the lions

I just dont give a fuck
Im so tired of having to care
so tired of pretending
I've got to get away
got to get out
they make me feel so guilty
so sick
and I'm done with that
A friend taught me how to stand up for myself
and i will never lay down again
I just dont care
I never did
sociopath? what the fuck fuck is that?
we all lie,
we all hate
and we all leave in the end
they will tell me that I'm sick
they will tell me that they can help
but no one can
no one can
I cant feel a fucking thing
I'm so numb to everything they tell me
I wont lie to them anymore
they have to know
I'm through

walls come down

let's break these walls down,
let's burn these useless bridges.
let's sever our ties,
and set ourselves free.
I'm so fucking sick...
so tired of all the wasted time
time spent on you
time spent on you but meant for me.
where are you now?
are you out on the streets with your friends?
are you right behind me reading my lips in the reflection of my dark sunglasses?
let's tear down these walls,
and rip the foundations from the very heart of the city that gave violent birth to them.
where am I now?
in the waiting room
of the doctor who will never come
I am in hell.
and where are you now?